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Hey guys.

Wierd place in life right now. Don't speak yo people I'd like to as much as I used to. Some don't want me. Some just are too busy. Whatever.

New management at work. Gotta have a resume' and an air check. I'm not worried. I do my job, and I really believe that Al believes in me. I'm lucky to have such an awesome boss. Anyway, will turn the new stuff in. If I get fired, so what? It's a job (that I love, don't misunderstand) but it isn't my life. I'm $400 in the hole right now anyway.

I'm still having fun. I'm caught in the middle of some things and that sucks, but I can't really change that. I'm completely uninterested in Jesse now, and I'm not even that upset. My self esteem is at an all-time high, and I deserve a guy who at least knows I exist. I don't want nothin' that don't want me. New York is coming, and that really excites me. I can't wait to take my mom and Anjelica.

In case you've been living under a rock, I have a new infatuation. It's like dense euphoria. His name is Jean Reno, and if you are unaware, for God's sake educate yourself. When I'm like this, it's like I'm very aware that I'm alive. Like every breath is of very cold air. It's beautiful. I wish you knew what it was like.

Speaking of insanity, I haven't had a severe attack in a long while. A few minor ones, but on the whole I'm very healthy.

If you want to reply, great, but in light of some recent events please refrain from anything dramatic. Those who know me know of my severe contempt for drama.

I hope you are all well. I hope I see you soon. Take care.