I got involved with a 'friend' and their drama in an effort to help. Now I stand as an iconoclast because I looked out for said 'friend.' My name has been tarnished by this person and my advice was totally refuted.
All the work I put in to being a friend. All the guard that stands around the endless funeral of my heart. I still can't protect myself. Those closest to me still wound me and I cannot protect myself from that.
I feel stupid and used. That feeling is making me sick. I can't even sleep for the feeling that I allowed someone to hurt me. I'm not really safe after all.