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I am so heartbroken right now.

I got involved with a 'friend' and their drama in an effort to help. Now I stand as an iconoclast because I looked out for said 'friend.' My name has been tarnished by this person and my advice was totally refuted.

All the work I put in to being a friend. All the guard that stands around the endless funeral of my heart. I still can't protect myself. Those closest to me still wound me and I cannot protect myself from that.

I feel stupid and used. That feeling is making me sick. I can't even sleep for the feeling that I allowed someone to hurt me. I'm not really safe after all.


Aug. 15th, 2002 09:31 pm (UTC)
Re: heh
Ok..:::Aimee holds up white flag:::

I am sorry. My view of the past may be distoted but whatever. it isn't worth losing you. I never said I didn't want to be friends anymore. I never questioned our friendship, I questioned your sources. If you want to stop talking or being friends thats up to you, that decision will not be mine. I hope my apology is enought right now, I am sorry. But I do not want this to continue..if you have anything else you would like to discuss with me I am open for it. I am just trying to save what I obviously messed up.
Aug. 16th, 2002 09:40 am (UTC)
Re: heh
I don't want to lose your friendship. I just want to put the past behind me and focus on the present and future. Life is going to pull us in different directions all too soon anyway. Let us carpe diem together while we still can. I really want to remain friends because I care about you and I always have.

And for God's sake, let's go out and do something mindless before we realize how needlessly serious we have become.