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I once dreamed of being a mother. I closed my eyes and let my heart spin a tale of a wunderkind, a perfect vision of happiness with sunlight in his smile. From his eyes, one could derive millions of particles of stardust and his laughter would be proof positive that God existed.

Nothing could be wrong in the world and such happiness I would find in his mere presence that every hardship I had once endured would melt away. He would be the imperfect reason.

But my dream burst in my hands, freezing my eyes and making all too obvious the crass injustice of the world in which we live. A world where hope dies inside you, leaving you in dark, barren unhappiness.

I should be worrying about party bags, or getting the cake just so. I should be singing and helping to blow out candles. This house should be filled with laughter, streamers all around, all for a boy with starlight in his eyes. This day should belong to his happiness. Instead, it belongs to my sorrow.

When I dreamed of being a mother, I wanted my child to always be full of wonder. I prayed he would always know joy. I wished that he would want for nothing, and I got my wish.

For he is dead, and the dead want for nothing.
Shame no one wished for me.

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bad_obsessions
Aug. 28th, 2008 05:00 am (UTC)
I'm sorry.
fishface44
Aug. 28th, 2008 09:08 am (UTC)
*hugs you*
purely_distel
Aug. 28th, 2008 10:50 am (UTC)
*just takes into her arms and holds*

(Anonymous)
Aug. 29th, 2008 03:03 am (UTC)
Hello, sorry that this is completely unrelated to your actually post, I'm not actually a member of LJ, as of yet anyway, so I had to post anonymously.

It's about your story Fearless, the Dark Knight centric story, with OC Desi. I love it very much and I hope you continue to write it. I also like how you've brought Two Face into the story, however brief it was, or will be.

I was thinking though, I know it's your story and 100% up too you, but I'd like to see more of Two Face, maybe become friends with one of the main characters, or helping them on a heist or something.. as well as perhaps bringing in another villain from the comic, as you did with Harley Quinn, another woman maybe, like Poison Ivy (Pamela Isley) to make make the love square more interesting.. obviously not a pair for Two Face, but maybe get her involved with someone else? Since Harley Quinn and Poison Ivy are friends an all in the comics, thought it might be an interesting idea.

Bye for now, keep up the amazing work.
lolasenvy
Aug. 29th, 2008 03:09 am (UTC)
hello there...
Thanks for the reply! If you like, you can Im me, I'd love to hear your ideas/comments!

or, just reply your AIM, MSN or YAHOO! screen name, and I'll add you.

k, thanx. Bye.
apophantic
Aug. 29th, 2008 03:48 am (UTC)
Oh man, I just saw this after messaging you on MSN. Your day must have been incredibly difficult, and for that I'm sorry. *hugs*
totally_tinus
Aug. 29th, 2008 05:25 am (UTC)
I'm sorry. *hugs*
lalondon13
Aug. 29th, 2008 05:08 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. I've never experienced what you've experienced and I can't relate or give any words of wisdom. Your words struck a chord with me since I've felt hopeless and dead inside too often. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
lolasenvy
Aug. 29th, 2008 05:11 pm (UTC)
Look alive, sweetheart
we have a sleepover to look forward to, remember? It'll be ok. :)
lalondon13
Aug. 29th, 2008 05:18 pm (UTC)
Re: Look alive, sweetheart
Cheers, that will be fun :) cute icon, btw lol
lolasenvy
Aug. 29th, 2008 05:18 pm (UTC)
Re: Look alive, sweetheart
Thanks! :)
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