Also, Nate said he didn't think I was ugly. I love how we can talk about the way I feel without it becomming an issue. I love how he can trust me and tell me things and let me in too. He can be my friend despite my feelings, and he doesn't make me feel bad for feeling this way. I adore him so. I know it's not going to happen, but the way I feel when I'm around him is simply amazing. I feel whole and warm and nothing seems so right as that hug at the end of the night.
He is the greatest guy in the world for understanding. For being my friend, and making everyrthing I am that much better. I love him and would do anything for him, he need only to ask me.
I finally feel right. I hope this feeling last a while.