I really want to hug all my friends right now. I want to hold them and for a minute give them my full attention and let them know that I love them.
I want them to know how scared I was this week. How much I thought about death and how short life can be. How ashamed I've been over this. How I felt like a failure at the one thing women should be able to do. How sad I am at the condition and how grateful I am over the diagnosis.
This is probably horemones but I really love you guys. And I need you guys right now. I'm not upset, I'm fortunate. I was so frightened. If you were there for me, then I thank you. If you had better things to do, then that's your issue to deal with. I owe all of you a hug because I'm going to see the beauty in today. I'm going to make it last.
I really mean that. I'm being selfless and completely honest right now.
- Current Mood:
indescribable
- Current Music:Head of the Class - but no Arvid ::sigh::
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i love you too.. and i really appreciate spending time with you and Celest tha other night.. thankyou.. i wish i were in reaching distance right now (i'm all about hugs).. but i'm in eufaula.. i'll hopefully talk to you before my SPRING BREAK, i need a break from columbus (and eufaula)..
but i have to restate this: i do love you too.. i'm not as close to you as others, but i would like to be.. i am juss so very comfortable around you.. like i should have known you sooner..