I'm tired. Haven't slept in two days. Stacker is bliss. Bought some stuff I shouldn't have last night. Pretty sure Andrew thinks I'm irresponcible at this point. Am in debt officially. Again. Not going to that meeting thing. My head hurts. I want to be 100 pounds lighter, 2 inches taller, and have his affection. I want to scream and cry out loud and for a long time. Want to feel better. Want to talk to Michael right now. I want to be healthy right now. Want to feel loved and wanted. Not getting what I want right now. Told a guy off today. I hate most people right now. Wish my friends would visit me. Loving Andrew more than words right now. Sleeping in my closet. Watching lots of movies. I'm hungry. Want a day all to myself. Want to laugh like I did when I had that feeling on 27 November 2002 at 9:13 PM. Wish it was then.